there is nothing to heal & i desire healing

i’ve been really wanting a deep healing session for a long time now. there are significant moments that stand out to me from different sessions in my life, with different practitioners. the first that comes to mind is this inner child work hypnosis that i did 9 years ago in arcata. i remember feeling the energy release throughout my body, accessing the emotions of my much younger self who suffered from the pain of asthma and anxiety. i remember feeling so much more centeredness and clarity after that session, and i immediately went into co-art making and collaboration that day.

the next moment that comes to mind was seeing a very clear, saturated, color with my eyes closed (an indigo or violet), while receiving reiki for the first time. and spontaneously bursting into tears. i felt changed after that particular session.

i would like to receive so much of an energetic shift that i feel like i have the flu again/// that i purge.

i never really knew about somatics until it became more of a buzzword. but the power of somatics lies in feeling the emotion on the surface of yourself, and feeling its release, and then the lightness and effortless embodiment of presence that comes afterward. and like, how normal that’s supposed to be! to shake things off often.