depression lite™️

understanding the seasons of my body and the timeline of major events in my life so far makes living in this flesh onesie easier to navigate. it doesn’t lessen the pain, but the stories of anniversaries and body memory are the anchor for my spirit.

spring is generally a difficult time for me. there have been at least three major spring traumas in my life. imagine these memories being topped off with:

• pms-induced mood swings

• not having any friends physically close by whom i can depend on

• seeing everyone on the internet smile and have fun in the sun during this energetically fiery season - uh-uh. not me. i am inside, rotting. /melodramatic.

• depression lite™️/ depression (regular)

if i know that it is groundhog season for me, what choices can i make with what i have on the present? and… is it ok to allow my growth to just be? and to let myself do the same thing over and over, without necessarily assigning meaning?